Actually i realized tt on friday night..when i went to a wedding tt i wont be getting married..but somehow i do want to..not the party..not the dress..but just a really nice ceremony so tt everyone knows im with someone tt loves me and tt i love her back..what got me thinking??..a message from L..she thanked me for remembering her bday..and i totally screwed up and told her she forgot mine..then i almost started crying..i guess i still care for her and have deep feelings..but to return to the actual post..i thought about the music tt ill have to play..for everyone to please everyone..the songs i would want to heat and the food i would want to eat..i also thought about how almost no-one would show up because of my lack of friends so it will turn out to be a family affair..wich i see nothing wrong with tt..i guess its true when they say how a girl wishes and desires a wedding..i wish for it..dont desire..and i want it with a girl..*sigh*
