Well, yesterday was unusual i skipped school for the last time (I swear) and well i talked and talked and let myself just be myself for once in a while.
That got me to dangerous grounds. Thinking. When i think i usually end up scared because i think of death or i think about finding the one. It wasn't so different this time, but i did it backwards, i thought of what i could offer and what would i do, given the circumstances of finding myself in love. like really head over heels.
And i got to the conclusion that i am like this- this is what i can give
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I am a weird person, i look tough on the outside and sometimes i act like i don't give a shit, when on the contrary im very responsible, im lovable and im a little corny (if you really deserve it), i cry at movies and sometimes when the mood is right or im just feeling a little bit blue i can cry with songs because somehow in my little head i think they are singing to me and were inspired by me when they where making that record, i can be mad and a little jealous (i said a little you know i hate jealousy) but its only for a good thing, i can stay up till late talking, watch a movie, watch plenty of movies, i can just stay listening to you everytime with a beer on my hand just thinking of how amazing it is to be sharing things with you, im romantic and ill never ever pressure you into anything because i don't like being pressured, you will be you and i will be me, the only thing is that we will be ourselves- Together.
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Right now there is no 'YOU' i will love it if that were the case, im still waiting though and i know she'll come and she will love what i am, no matter where she is, no matter who she is, i will love her and i will give her what i have to offer.Labels: Gayness, In a random world, Me
It's great to sometimes realize the good things about yourself instead of the things you don't like.
You will make "her" very happy one day when you find her!!