When you freak out there's a road sign. 2
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Im laying in my bed reminiscing specially when i have to watch other people kissing. Not exactly like Lily Allen once said but you get the idea.

Im in this relationship from hell.

I've been trying i really have but i just realized like 20 minutes ago that if you don't like the kiss then you won't like anything at all. She is a bad kisser or we just don't connect?. Help
Im not full of myself but like I've said  before I do deserve better, and I've been going at it for months all we do is fight on the phone or where im there where she is, we don't have anything AT ALL in common, and she hates my friends because i like them, well this has to be she hates my friend because he is my friend and he is a he and he is not gay, which to her is unacceptable because him being straight has got to mean that he wants something more of me. she is jealous (yes that's why the song), she wants to be in control and usually all i do is say im sorry and i don't want that anymore.

I don't want to be sorry because there's nothing i have to be sorry about. 

And im too much of a coward to leave. Why?. because somehow in my almost never twisted head of mine i believe that's all im going to get and it scares me because it has gotten to a point where everything everything ive always said i wouldn't do- i'm doing, and everything i hate- it's happening. 

I do love her, but as the awesome Samantha Jones once said. I Love ME More.

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At March 1, 2009 at 10:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said........
vaya, vaya, pues quizas deberias de dejar de que se vaya a descanzar, te esta afectando de forma extraordiaria y t esta afectando de una forma descomunal, no te limites y no pongas barreras mntales, se fuerte, fria e inteligente, estas muy cerca de lograrlo

nada mas TE HACE FALTA CREERLO!!!!!!
CONFIA EN TI MISMA
JL
 

At March 4, 2009 at 10:25 AM, Blogger Super Bek said........
I definitely understand what you're talking about. Obviously you two were friends before and if you love her, and love yourself, you need to get out of the relationship before you both get hurt. If you're not happy eventually she will be unhappy too.

I know it's hard when you think you won't find anybody else, but in this case, it would be better to be happy and save your friendship rather than be miserable in a relationship with someone who seems very jealous.

I hope you get things figured out and make what you think is the right decision!