Confessions of a NOT so Teenage Drama Queen!

Im off!

2009-04-09T13:15:00.000-05:00

What's done its done. no turning back.

Probably ill take you back my friend but its time for me to go!.

You can find me here!...

All the same things...just a little better looking!- I won't erase here. Far too precious.

Moving!

2009-04-08T14:53:00.000-05:00

Okay first im waiting for my mum to come and feed me! lol! my brother and sisters are the same! so im hugry and decided to listen to Kelly Clarkson while having a bit of a smoke and then i turned on ~~not~~ my computer and got thinking, i live in LJ so i think i may move and stop writing here and write there. I think its better anyways with the cuts and the locks in case i wanna post something i don't want 'someone' to watch it (note i don't have a someone is just a 'in case of' kind of thing), but even if some people don't comment, people do come in here soo im still thinking, probably ill get more into LJ than in here and i can change it alot more, don't forget i have my to do list and its LONG and i haven't even updated my template in more than a year!- so i don't know, probably there will be a moving coming soon!

Skins- Basically All Im Doing Now!

2009-04-08T13:39:00.001-05:00

Ha! well im pretty much sleepy. I slept at 2 am and that was because my brother arrived at 11pm and told me if we could finish watching Skins quoting 'you left me hanging now we'll finish it'- this because my dad arrived when we were finishing watching episode 6 (yes NAOMI/EMILY, Lake, Kiss, Love!) and now my mother wants to finish watching it too.. i just really hope they wont think i have a problem or anything because I will watch it again with my mom. And let me tell you i am in love once again with Emily and according to BFF im in love with myself because she reminds her of me, and also to my JJ i look like her so if this is real and i do look like her,

Am i in love with me or what?, becausei totally don't get it, i don't look like her, well maybe a bit in the lips. wich they are not.

Damn i need to go out, i havent seen the outside of the city in like 2 days, but i wont go to gay town, its too soon, and i won't go alone because maybe ill find her there and im not in the mood for anything, i just want to smoke. and drink coca-cola, and maybe go to a museum.

I want my computer back and i swear tonight ill try and finish my ~~great~~ idea. Which in the end you'll be the one to judge.

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Is it weird like tots weird that i enjoy reading fiction that involves graphic sex scenes?, im not a perv i swear but there is just something about how well they are written that i just like them. uhm, okay time for me to take a bath now, Literally is like almost 2pm and im in my boxers and shirt. that's what i call taking vacations.

It's My Own Cheating Heart That Makes Me Cry

2009-04-07T12:00:00.000-05:00

I've never imagined having 1 computer for a family f 6 was going to be such a problem until yesterday night, i need it because i have homework and my sisters need it because they want to chat so we had to make schedules which in the end turns out we didnt follow them and now here i am almost 10 hours late starting my holiday homework!. I miss my comp. Enough said.

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Im kind of getting my family to watch Skins, so far we've watched the first 2 episodes and im quite nervous about the 4th one, *ahem Kiss, maybe im doing it so they'll know or at least they'll ask, but i just know im doing it because they would really enjoy it and they seem to..they laugh and everything wich is excellent, because that way i can watch it in a really big TV and with Stereo! LOL a whole new experience its like im a Skins virgin again!.

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INSERT PICTURE HERE

this is what happens when you don't have your computer, you're out of pics to post. uhm.

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Everytime i think im off the hook something happens, this time i can really say its not going to happen, just so you know, yesterday was her birthday i remembered and i didn't called, i don't miss her, i guess i just miss the idea of being with someone, which in the end will happen i know, Ill have my own love story.

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My story is in hiatus, i am working on it but i think i messed up good so i need to fix it, its a great idea but i havent quite got around to put it out there as it should be.

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Template: I know what i want just like i've said before, i just..well you know...need my comp.

I Shall Not Worry

2009-04-05T12:39:00.000-05:00

Praise Meg.

Joking aside yesterday was a good day except for the fact that i don't know why my cousin got mad, i got 3 theories, it can be that

a) I mentioned getting a job

b) I didn't think she would take me to the bus station so i kind of ruled her out and in the end she did take me

c) She just wanted to be mad. And in her creepy little mind decided it was so horrible that i was happy and since she is not well she would put me in misery, which will not happen, I just wanted to clear this out a second and get it off my mind for the last time.

Im still rooting on C!.

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Im back home, and just as i get here i breathe a different air, and air im not sure ill be able to breathe in a different place, i mean is HOME, my house and my family so is great to be here and well now i just want to call my friends so i can see them.

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My BFFinthewholeentireworld, P, got into Skins because of me, now the list is 3, and you know who you are!, now im trying to get my brother to watch it with me, the thing is I haven't decided if it is because i really want him to watch it or because i just want to see Skins again!. OMG im scared of the answer.

The Chruch Of Meg

2009-04-03T00:13:00.001-06:00

Im a follower so im entitled to put this so She can live in you.

And in case you wanna read what i'm talking about and become a follower just like me, just click on her Holiness!. See you at the temple

No im not crazy!

Inspiration

2009-04-01T23:07:00.001-06:00

I was in school and i got off to my newly re-found (is that even a word?) inspiration.

It is a story and before anyone asks no im not a writer, just somehow i get strange ideas that i try to put out in a paper and sometimes its good. you'll be the judge once its finished and once i post it. wich will be shortly. not today but this week for sure!

oh and i already know what i want as a new template FINALLY i just need my computer so that will happen next week!

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I'm discovering well no im being told of new great music wich today ill sleep listening to it. thanks to you and you!

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Spring break for me starting saturday yey!. Will go with the fam and rest.

That's all for now my friends! have a great night!

Me, Myself and I

2009-04-01T16:07:00.001-06:00

Ok forget about the title, i was just humming that song!. Today is my obsessed day, and if you must know i watched skins yesterday almost all day and at night i re-watched episode 4, 6 and 9- Naomily parts only!. haha so yes i am THAT obsessed so right now ill share the kiss that started it all. Maybe later ill post something with meaning. LOL

Now its time to breathe and move on!.

What Do I Have To Offer.

2009-03-31T11:05:00.000-06:00

Well, yesterday was unusual i skipped school for the last time (I swear) and well i talked and talked and let myself just be myself for once in a while.

That got me to dangerous grounds. Thinking. When i think i usually end up scared because i think of death or i think about finding the one. It wasn't so different this time, but i did it backwards, i thought of what i could offer and what would i do, given the circumstances of finding myself in love. like really head over heels.

And i got to the conclusion that i am like this- this is what i can give

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I am a weird person, i look tough on the outside and sometimes i act like i don't give a shit, when on the contrary im very responsible, im lovable and im a little corny (if you really deserve it), i cry at movies and sometimes when the mood is right or im just feeling a little bit blue i can cry with songs because somehow in my little head i think they are singing to me and were inspired by me when they where making that record, i can be mad and a little jealous (i said a little you know i hate jealousy) but its only for a good thing, i can stay up till late talking, watch a movie, watch plenty of movies, i can just stay listening to you everytime with a beer on my hand just thinking of how amazing it is to be sharing things with you, im romantic and ill never ever pressure you into anything because i don't like being pressured, you will be you and i will be me, the only thing is that we will be ourselves- Together.

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Right now there is no 'YOU' i will love it if that were the case, im still waiting though and i know she'll come and she will love what i am, no matter where she is, no matter who she is, i will love her and i will give her what i have to offer.

Peter Gabriel - MEXICO!

2009-03-28T14:13:00.002-06:00

I should really write this in spanish but like i've said before i get my words around better in english.

Yesterday night one of my long life dreams became true. I got to experience one of the best musicians alive LIVE and with great musicians as well (ex. Tony Levin, David Rhodes & Richard Adams), i already knew the setlist (not the order because i still wanted to be surprised).

I can't really put down in words what it was like to stand there and be there first row!- my mom, dad, brother all went along with my craziness, we arrived to the forum at 5pm, and the doors were opening at 6, we stayed there and started talking about how my brother and me used to listen to him since we weren't even born (true story ya'll).

Open doors and we ran, well not literally they weren't following me on that one!, i wanted to go to the bathroom so i urged them to go and find us a great place, it was a great place indeed, really first row from our section, we were only apart by the 'VIP' wich wasn't big, along came the chips and the beers, i didn't have one only my brother and my dad, then the wait, it was supposed to start at 8:30, Travis was the supportive band but it didn't started until 8:45, ha now that i think about it it wasn't that far along they performed for one hour and they were good, really good, then they finished and i could feel every emotion in me just starting to grow, then at 10:18 lights off! music GO!.

His voice OUT in the open in my country singing to my people, i cried, and yelled, then it all went to silence he was about to say something, he ~~read~~ talked to us in spanish and explain the origins of the song he was about to perform, i was loving every bit of it, for once i wasn't looking at the screens, i was looking at the show, then and there, once in a lifetime and probably the last chance i was going to get.

Every single song was a trip, every single one was a different emotion, a different memory, something to talk about and cherish.

With everything i still got my favorites, i wanted to hear 'Solsbury Hill' since forever and it was amazing, but the song that blew my heart away was 'In your eyes' that song melted me down on the floor and made me realize i want to feel like that for someone and in that moment i will realize she is the one. 'Secret World', 'Sledgehammer', 'Blood of eden', 'No self control', 'Games without frontiers', just to name the ones you'll probably know. one of the best of the night as well, 'Father, Son' it touched us me so much, the forum was quiet, everyone was listening to every word throughout that song, before Peter sang it they were asking for 'Biko' wich he ended up singing at the end, but he said and i quote 'Padre e hijo', then the music, then his voice and the lyrics, and it was oh so quiet, oh so perfect, one of the best nights in my life, and im proud to say i enjoyed every single bit of it.

Will upload some show pics when they become available!

Im An Intruder

2009-03-25T11:31:00.000-06:00

Its safe to say i am super extra exited by the thing happening on friday. Whats that thing? Not other than one of my dreams of my entire lifetime (well since i was like 6 years old) Im going to watch Mr. Peter Gabriel himself live and it is promising to be one of the best or THE BEST moment in my life.

Ive said and i mantain it when this friday happens ill only have to see Beyoncé live and ive already seen every artist i really really like. (well Pink is slowly entering the list and it wouldn't hurt to see Hanson again).

Well right now i can't think of anything that is not my date on friday or school and since both of them seem boring or could be boring then ill stop now.

My location is where the date will happen, if you haven't listened to any of Mr. Gabriel's music i highly recommend 'secret world live' his best songs and live!.

Enjoy life because it is beautiful!. I am happy today

Now ill leave you with his most known hit so far, and one song ill definitely hear on friday and one ill enjoy. Its not my favorite but i do like it and i hope you do too!. (taken from the cd i recommended! <3)

I Can Imagine The Moment (Naomily!)

2009-03-23T12:59:00.000-06:00

Im late I KNOW. But you still get the feeling!.

I <3 Emily

Pics taken with love from one of my fave Journals

Not Holding On!

2009-03-20T10:59:00.000-06:00

For some reason this is my second time in a row writing my blog without an internet connection and without pressure, and i'm loving it!.

School was good today, i love my class and the teacher as always gets his job done in the best way.

I was getting my hands on the 9th episode of skins, but it was slow, its always better the ~~next day~~ today it gets on like magic, i kind of think what its going to happen but i don't really want it to happen because i could cry. The bad thing of it all is that i always get to watch the episodes friday night and i got school saturdays at 7am so i don't get to sleep much, but its oh so worth it!.

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Things here begin to have a meaning, im a believer that things happen for a reason and that there is destiny and that you can create your own. A bit contradictory i know but its the truth.

'Love won't come knocking on your door, you may find it on the street- He/She is meant for you, but you have to do something about it'.

I know she is out there that is for sure, but time is something precious and i will find her and she will find me, everything will be perfect everything will be as its supposed to be.

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I haven't been this 'poetic' or with a need to write since i was in high school, needless to say that was a long time ago. Sometimes i get inspired and i like it, sometimes i think it is a piece of crap. Now i feel like i could write allot about everything but i just don't have the time to do it, exams and homework and movies, like if i were to really write, like i did i wouldn't be writing this and i shouldn't be writing the other stuff because its sleeping time because i have to be up at 8 but like i said is all for a reason.

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HER

I guess now is the perfect time to say what i knew all along, i didn't like her like her, i didn't love her, i don't know why i was there.

I have a recommendation: If you don't like the kiss- LEAVE!. i swear you could know everything just by that.

Im not mad and im not angry i swear i got to class today and i was shinning with happiness, im free now & i didn't cry which says something i didn't actually felt bad, i felt relieved.

People trusts your instincts!

Now i got sleepy so ill write again tomorrow but ill post it soon!

What was it we were...Thinking of

2009-03-18T10:57:00.002-06:00

I need to write how i feel and normally when i do my blog updates they are fast because i need to go or because i feel like i shouldn't be writing allot- I have come to realize is my blog (lol) so this time i won't make a small post.

That being said, im writing this at 11:15pm on St. Patrick's Day (March 17) but since i am actually posting it on another day i'll leave that one and just recall when i wrote it.

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Today was a day of up's a down's for various reasons. I've been feeling bad (emotionally) and well i've been fucking some things up. some of which i'll discuss in this space.

-I needed money to pay my ex-girlfriend, money she told me on my birthday i shouldn't worry anymore about paying her because it was my ''gift''. Little i know that gift was only a way for her to have me there because she played that card like 2 times and well i was stupid enough (as someone pointed out) to be there not actually because of that but it had a part on it. I decided i was going to be brave and last wednesday (the day of my horrific 5) i was going to tell her how i felt, how i really felt meaning that i felt (and still feel when i think about it) that it was a sick relationship, when we talked we fought over and over again, she accused my best friend of wanting to love me and in the end actually wanted me to choose between my friend and her- that was just not me.
Her thoughts straight people can't be friends with gay people because they always want them. I didn't agree, i didn't choose she yelled i yelled then we made up, then i thought over and over again and on wednesday i told her that- Not sane anymore, and that doesn't mean i don't love you (which until friday was entirely true).

I was supposed to call her at night and i didn't because of my grade, i had to retake that test the next day and i really needed to study, she told me to call her that it will only take her a minute so i did. she said everything was ok she agreed with me and that she wanted me in her life as friends but not like BFF just friends, which in my language translates as 'i know you but don't call' i agreed- i was very worried about my grade and i really didn't want to fight anymore. i was having everyday headaches because of the fights and the pressure. It was all okay, as i wrote the other day it was a good day on thursday and then friday the 13th of hell.

I was happy about the beach and i was joining on some beach-shopping when at exactly 3pm she called. I answered and she said what i thought she would: remember the last present i gave you? -Yes i do. Well that one im going to have to take back, i don't really need it but i'll see what i will use it for. I panicked she knew i didn't have it and that i would be in a extremely amount of pressure to get it and she did it anyways, i understand is her money and all but you don't just give and take back as simple as that. Or at least thats what i always have thought. So i asked for help and now i have her money and i will tell her nothing at all, or probably i will tell her every little thing i hate and how i hated the way she handled this, i now regret so many things but you have to learn from everything.

-He is going to help me, he is good to me and i fucked up hard (remember several times i said) i went on a mini vacation (i haven't forgot the pics!) and i didn't see him for 3 days and the first thing that comes out of my mouth is 'did you get the money' what am i an idiot? no i know im not, im just a worried ass person who had nothing in her mind but that money because i received an email with the pay date so yes i was worried and i know i was a jerk and i told you i was sorry before but it won't hurt if i say it again. IM SORRY! and thank you so very much!!

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I was going to write about my JJ and my JJ happens to be him, he is my friend, he knows im gay and he knows how i function and he doesn't judge, he does disaprove of some stuff and speaks his mind about it but he is kind an honest as well, i love him (as friends but of course!) and he asked me something that you will get to see if you happen to watch Skins (i know i promised ep. 2 been trying but they disconnect me 'they=home' you'll get it i promise!). And then you will understand.

I shared my point of view about it and how i felt, if it does happen then i will make someone happy if it doesnt it will be because of destiny of because someone changed his mind. But i agreed and now i understand Emily and i totally respect her for that. not that i ever did the opposite. and yes i know its a TV show!

JJ & Emily

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I may cry on friday when i get to see Em's episode if it turns out to be what i (and allot of people) don't want it to happen i just have to wait. dld. and see! -- I need to study for exam 3. maybe ill do it tomorrow and then ill study (yes i can i get 2 chances per exam! how cool! and no they are not the same!)

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Now i will get going hoping that you don't have to go through what i went through its my wish for your life. Its not pretty but you do learn who to trust and to validate some aspects you thought were missing or not there.

Enjoy your life. Im now free and planning to do the same. No pressure i will just be me and do what i want when i want not worrying about Her and that i have to talk to her, i have to sms, nothing. Its good.

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And just because im still obsessed!

Let's take a boat & wait until darkness comes.

2009-03-17T11:21:00.001-06:00

I really wish i could do that. Just leave it all behind. Now im absolutely fucked up.

I promised myself i was going to relax and i did. i really did but coming to the city again is like all of this problems just get around the surface and explode even though i know everything will be okay i still can't help but wonder.

I promised some pics and i will give them to you i will just do it later still got homework to do!.

-I ate allot at some point i felt like throwing up.

-Listened to Peter Gabriel on my way there (Peter+Road trip=Excellent!)

-Swimming in the ocean is the best thing ever.

-I AM supposed to put on sunblock!. i did and now im not in pain!

Now back to it all. Everything will be fine. And i will have it.

btw. i have my own J.J. I swear! and i will ramble about it!

Life after failure

2009-03-12T19:15:00.000-06:00

Is Great!. I just got a 9! and i couldn't be happier.

My uncle just let my ~~roomates~~ cousin, aunt and me know we're going to the beach this weekend. why? Because on monday he doesn't have to work and i don't have to go to school.

I feel happy. because i am relaxed and because i got a 9 and i knew i could and i will be even more relaxed when im on the sun this saturday and sunday!. Ill post pics i promise.

btw can't wait for skins! damn episode still won't show up! and how bad was it the L word finale?..so bad i will make an entire page about it. too much to do!.

Skins!

2009-03-12T00:03:00.002-06:00

Just because i can! and because i love it and because im hoping YOU will love it

This will happen this season.

Once again Im in love.!

Epic fail

2009-03-11T22:46:00.000-06:00

I know im not supposed to be writing right now. I should be studying! but i really need this.

Epic Fail- I know. I've gotten 5 before only this time it was personal!. Me against what i thought i could do. What did i learn?- Not to trust in what i do think i know anymore.

20 questions so to get a 5 i got right 10- correct?, now i need to focus. I need to stay alive an 8 but i can do more so im going for it all.

Im going for it right now!. Back to my studying session.

Saying good-bye to hollywood!

2009-03-11T00:46:00.001-06:00

This doesn't mean im giving up on my life's dream of making a movie. Im just saying good-bye to the dream i forced in my head about her.

This past couple of days i kind of lied. Pretended my cell didn't worked and well i felt ~~free~~ happy, that mixed with Skins episode 6 and what Naomi's mom tells her, that was it for me.

It was good im not going to lie. But i do deserve better, someone nice and someone who doesn't play someone i can just be myself with without having the need to pretend.

The decision is made, i just need to make it happen.

I saw half of the new Underworld movie in my advertising class. Weird but true. Im a fan and i was a bit disappointed that Kate Beckinsale is not on the film (well according to my brother she does make an appearance at the end). but i was liking it. Crappy FX but i like the story. I liked vampires before Twilight even show up!. FYI.

Now its late and its even weird that im typing this in my comfortable bed being tuesday and all and that disconnecting wireless at night. (actually kind of reminds me of being home at night where they don't turn off wireless!)

But it was good that i had a chance to catch up because i really like it here. After all is mine!.

And just because im in the mood! /this picture is of the episode mentioned above!.

Im a bit in love. please bare with me.

Long Shot

2009-03-06T12:01:00.001-06:00

Aside from being my favorite song in the new Kelly Clarkson CD.

I've been actually thinking i'm in love with Emily. Well me and like thousands more but for me is kind of weird because she is nothing like what i've been known to wish for.

It seems today will be a totally boring day, Im not going out and well i have nothing left to study.

I will enjoy the quiet. I shall not worry lol.

MeetEmily-~~Again~~

Watch SKINS!

Skins: Emily&Naomi

2009-03-05T12:18:00.000-06:00

OMG it feels like ages. i actually don't mean to stop writing the thing is this week i was on exams ~~(cue: 'was' today is my last one)~~ and i had another reason for it- SKINS.

By reading one of my most beloved Journals i decided i was going to give this 'new' show a chance and it turned out to be one of the greatest experiences on TV of my life- i was always used to shows i could semi-relate but not entirely. Its real and emotional and if you live where i live and you are not familiar by their culture then maybe a little offensive but not to me. Yes you see drugs and sex and they talk about it as if it where the most normal thing in the world but who doesn't? maybe you do it and you hide it at least they are honest enough to write about it and talk about it. And the most important thing the gayness. There's this 2 girls. Right now i will not elaborate- if for some reason you haven't seen it. BUT you must. Its excellent just watch everything of season 3!

I haven't seen the past seasons but they are different characters so there will be no problem if you just happen to watch season 3!. I promise you, you will not be disappointed.

Now got to head back but this meets my weekly obsession too.

Meet Emily&Naomi

When you freak out there's a road sign. 2

2009-03-01T01:44:00.000-06:00

Im laying in my bed reminiscing specially when i have to watch other people kissing. Not exactly like Lily Allen once said but you get the idea.

Im in this relationship from hell.

I've been trying i really have but i just realized like 20 minutes ago that if you don't like the kiss then you won't like anything at all. She is a bad kisser or we just don't connect?. Help

Im not full of myself but like I've said before I do deserve better, and I've been going at it for months all we do is fight on the phone or where im there where she is, we don't have anything AT ALL in common, and she hates my friends because i like them, well this has to be she hates my friend because he is my friend and he is a he and he is not gay, which to her is unacceptable because him being straight has got to mean that he wants something more of me. she is jealous (yes that's why the song), she wants to be in control and usually all i do is say im sorry and i don't want that anymore.

I don't want to be sorry because there's nothing i have to be sorry about.

And im too much of a coward to leave. Why?. because somehow in my ~~almost never~~ twisted head of mine i believe that's all im going to get and it scares me because it has gotten to a point where everything everything ive always said i wouldn't do- i'm doing, and everything i hate- it's happening.

I do love her, but as the awesome Samantha Jones once said. I Love ME More.

Welcome to breaktown. 1

2009-02-26T22:26:00.000-06:00

This is post #1. Im extremely uncomfortable with a situation im being placed in. I don't have the time to really post about it tonight. Got homework and exam's to get ready for.

I just want someone who can listen. Someone who is actually not jealous and is understanding. I do not ask for much and i do deserve it.

A song for the moment im in. Im sure you will like it. It is awesome

Bored

2009-02-23T18:40:00.000-06:00

Im in school. My teacher who never ever fails a class decided to do so today!. And i am very bored. I should like totally do a post about the Oscar's last night (which were awesome! btw). But that would be in my extremely long To Do List. That should be named Im never going to do it but i do intend of doing them.

I was home this past weekend it was good, had up's and down's but nothing that can't be fixed. Hopefully. Is just really good and amazing to be home and i can't wait till im back there again. That will happen in a month and a couple of days to be exact in what is going to be the best concert ever!.

Im sleeping. I think in a total of 72 hours i slept 14 hours so my little amazing eyes haha are closing as i type. I think im heading back home and since im not writing in my computer i cannot get my hands on the new L Word. i think i only have like 3 episodes left. NO!. But that's life. I think the time i was more sad about seeing a show go is when Friends left me *sob, then Gilmore, i miss Lorelai. Then South of Nowhere but i haven't got a chance to miss them since im doing my 4th time with them (yes im still obsessed! and i find new things everytime i see them) Now The L Word. Im going to miss them. Im going to miss Jenny, im going to miss Helena, and yes im going to miss Alice. The other ladies ill miss them ~~just not as much~~.

Back to reality.

Somewhere in a little Island.

2009-02-19T12:14:00.000-06:00

I think i forgot to blog about how im in love haha. Isla Fisher? ring any bells. Well i saw her this weekend in 2 movies one previously seen before. Definitely, Maybe & Confessions Of A Shopaholic, well let me tell you she is gorgeous, she is a wife and a mother and i will let proof of her awesomeness at the end of the post.

The movies are amazing too. Very much the type of movies that i like, so this qualifies as an obsessed post. and since she is too precious to post about something else ill just return in a little while and do so.

Pre..ME!

2009-02-16T22:45:00.000-06:00

Well i hate being this shallow, well actually its not something im proud but i do love tomorrow's date. that one is called being my birthday, ususally my birthdays got nothing special and its not because i planned them to be that way but i do know what's going to happen, i'll receive one gift and 3 calls, one from my family, one from my favorite aunt, and the other one from my other aunt both of them include families. I do not hate it, i actually like it and would be crushed if i didn't receive any of that but almost always my bday is crushed with other stuff that doesn't even include me!.

Well yes that's it, tomorrow is my birthday i cannot wait, maybe tomorrow will be the special day, i know it is because i was born and no im not braging.

Edit:

I read it and it sounds like i am a total brat, im not, i swear i just want to make tomorrow special because its a once in a lifetime event and i am only turning 23, maybe when im 30 i will think completely different about this specific date, but not right now.

Valentine's day

2009-02-13T12:19:00.001-06:00

Its not technically today but its a couple more hours ahead and i do have school and no time to post tomorrow!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Do i have reason to celebrate tomorrow? probably. Not because of love but because of friendship and i do have great friends and people that love me. So it won't be such a shitty day after all! AND my b-day is coming up so more reason to celebrate

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I was just inspired, and i remembered allot about my own personal story and about the way i am, it will be totally unrespectful to show you why but i will tell you today i am walking with a smile upon myself. Thank you!

Crazy..

2009-02-10T23:22:00.005-06:00

I totally don't intend to write allot about today. Something was asked (im thinking about it!). There was a fight (not about what was asked) and im totally screwed i need help and hopefully he will help me so i can make the right decision which is leave.

Have a nice night

Out of control

2009-02-09T22:59:00.020-06:00

What the fuck went wrong with Chris Brown? Punching a woman. HELL NO! ok i had to get that out of my system (i really hope Rihanna is well)

I think i maybe getting a cold, that's what i get for trying to be fit and swim everyday, its cold!.

There's this girl at school who i can swear is totally gay, and totally not my type because she is like me, wonder what im like? well that will be in another post and that takes me to TO DO! and i have allot of things there, my template (that i will find it, or if you think i could like one you've seen then tell me please!), the L word recaps (im getting my hands on episode 4 as i write and well i still have to make episode 2&3), and a description about me, even if it is in those 'about me' thingies in my space or something like that.

School is going along well, i have an exam this week, maybe i do it tomorrow maybe on wednesday i do need to read, im loving one of my classes (tomorrow @ 6) and hating one, well not actually hating it but i just don't like economic's and when its saturday at 9 all i really want to do is go back to bed.

Like i wanna do right now, bed is the new IT for me, hehe, well it has never stopped, i love sleeping i hate getting up early but it has to be done. Im done with homework to so im signing off.

Well i just wanted to add as a last very exciting thing for me (and for my brother too) Blink 182 is back! yes! hopefully they'll come to Mexico again and this time i can see them!

Coming Out!

2009-02-06T23:17:00.015-06:00

Well i just learnt today that one of The L word's actress ~~Molly~~ Clementine Ford came out! like OFFICIALY!. like i wanna be with everybody!. so that is so cool! and what made it even cooler is that she did it so kids in the world wouldn't be too scared about it.

in her own words: ''I never want to put a label on myself — but knowing that not everyone comes from such a liberal place, when something like Prop 8 comes out, you realize it’s important to stand up and be counted. A little gay kid in a small town is more important than whether I want a label."

It may sound corny but it is true, with everything that happened with prop 8 and all it is nice to have someone out!. One step at a time people! one step at a time!

Props to her!

Megan Fox

2009-02-05T23:20:00.020-06:00

Obsession #1 (well that could be a lie but today she is! and ill be damn if i don't dream about her!).

I remember Miss Megan Fox when she was opposite my all time obsession Lindsay Lohan in the movie that names my blog (without the NOT that is). all right ill write it all just because i love the title, ''confessions of a teenage drama queen''. Along came ''transformers'' and along came all the magazines, articles and incredible pictures that feature...her!.

She is absolutely beautiful and if you are a reader you will realize i kind of have a type of girl i like. and well she has it all! even that ~~infamous~~ bisexual rumor, bad thing she is engaged to that ~~Beverly Hills~~ Brian Austin Green guy. well i don't know if she still is but last time i checked she was!. Anyways i will leave you with the actual point of this almost weekly obsession post. The pictures!...

Do you see what i mean now?...just because i can...another one!

That's it for today, but i promise more of her soon!. as well as those reviews. Im about to go and watch the 3rd episode! yey! *happy dance*

Whatever will be...will be

2009-02-05T00:53:00.023-06:00

Almost 1am- New day and obviously im not sleeping.

I have allot of my mind and well i had to have some homework done and well i did it! no more things to do but the usual. checking on gossip sites, my favorite blogs and celebrity web pages. oh yeah and facebook and twitter!.

I watched the 2nd episode of the L word and i WILL do my ~~boring~~ amazing reviews! (To do: obviously along with my template! i will find the time!) right now im trying to get a hold of episode 3! yey!

Well now to the title. yes allot on my mind. Im going to have a call in about 30 minutes and i am nervous why? because i do care for her, but sometimes i don't understand the way she says she understands me. I dont get it and i wish i did, I say things that i think she will like and i stop myself from saying things she wouldnt like and here i am everyday thinking about her and caring for her and not being me, and i guess thats the point were it all should stop- then i ask myself why, the answer is simple. she is there and she wants me, why don't i give it a try?. Who knows what could happen, i will only hope for the best, because it is worth it.

The L Word ep. 601

2009-01-27T12:58:00.006-06:00

Okay there are no cuts here, so i won't make this spoilerish in case you haven't seen it. I got my hands on the first episode of the l word and i saw it last friday, right now im trying to get the second one. Now here are the best and worse about it all.

BEST -Jenny Rules! (i know allot of you are not fans of her, but this time, well its Jenny she will be dead eventually and she just looks amazingly beautiful!) -Helena is back! (i know we had her in the last episode, and in this one she only shows her face like once or twice but she is there and that's what counts) -Max!, not that i love him but i only saw him once and only a part of his face (was that a big big mustache?) -Revenge Sex. what more is there to say!

NOT SO -Hit!. uhm Really? It was nice, just a little sad thinking how my fave character will end up dead and probably we'll never find out who did it. and that i only have 5 more left!. now its my time to turn around and scream.

And just because they are so beautiful. Specially Mia Kirshner!

Images via After Ellen

The thing about being away

2009-01-23T13:30:00.000-06:00

I have this thing that i do just because i miss my family and that is calling them when im returning home from school. Being late at night and with no-one around i can easily talk and well i can say everything i want.

Yesterday wasn't different from any other day except that is 1 of the 2 days i don't get a ride home after school so i need to get on 2 bus trips and walk a 15 minute walk which is when i call them. well i got walking at around 8:40 (i was late due to late class gossip) i called my mom and i got voicemail and then my ~~fucking~~ phone went off! i thought it was just like it does it goes blank and then it just restarts. but oh no! i didn't had any battery left and i didn't notice so until i got home and connected my phone and actually turned it on because i kinda went to have something to eat i was starving!. Then surprise surprise i got my dad worried and well i noticed the call and picked up the phone. he just wanted to know that i was alright so i told him yeah and he ended it with ''next time call my phone not your mom's'' then i went ''why?'', then he went ''just because i will pick up so call my phone'' i was like ''okay goodnight'' and immediately i knew something was wrong!.

The thing about being away is i get absolutely freaked when i think my parents are fighting, maybe it has nothing to do about being away maybe it has everything to do with it because i am not here and well there is no way in hell someone is going to tell me exactly how things are so a while ago i got online and my dad was there. of course i didn't wanted to ask anything but along came information and well it was just because my dad things a friend (girl) of my sister likes her likes her like i like girls likes her and he freaked!, and told my sister to tell her friend to stop being so stalkerish (according to my dad the girl sends my sister txts and gets all mad because my sister talks with other girls) or he will tell her himself. and he got very very mad at my mom because he says she didnt mind at all and actually got mad because he was checking her phone (which is a valid point but he does claim he just turned off the calculator) and now my dad just rambled up on me with that he must ve waaay mad.

Now the thing with all this letters being written is

my dad is a lovable gentle person but he is not wanting gay daughters. what am i? a gay daughter of his. he doesnt know but i became really really sad when i read 'thats not what i want for her' and 'less if it is this way with that girl being so stalkerish'.
my dad is mad at my mom and his bday is coming.
my dad doesnt want a gay daughter. or son in that case (yes i have a brother)
my sister has a girlfriend? my sister is gay? (ok this one i believe is a 5% chance, i really doubt it. but yet again who knows!)

I guess being OUT right now at this point will be a no-no.at least with my parents. my brother is a maybe. a maybe that can come to a he KNOWS soon. im hoping i have the guts for that. soon. and i hope that this thing that happened yesterday will be over soon. for the sake of them and for my peace of mind.

Oscar nominations

2009-01-22T22:23:00.029-06:00

If there is a thing i don't miss on TV are the oscar's (there's other stuff too but this is one of the most importants) and today the nominations were given.

I wasn't surprised to see the late Heath Ledger nominated for his role on Dark Night but there will be people that will claim (if he wins) that it is only because he is death. Believe me im NOT one of them!, but i was suprised to see Robert Downey Jr. Nominated for his role on Tropic Thunder, i haven't seen that movie have you?.

Now. One of my first loves. Ms. Jolie is nominated for her role on Changeling. I haven't seen that one because it hasn't arrive on my country. i know i should not complain but BUT BUT i wanna see it so bad! before the oscar's. i want her to win or Kate Winslet and no i haven't seen her movie either. Again my country's fault!.

On wich movies i have seen!, well nominated 2! again remember my country! and i can tell you that i loved the 2!. that being Benjamin Button and the Dark Night.

Now for what almost made me cry!. Mr. Peter Gabriel got nominated for his song on Wall-E!. I love that song!. and well this is the first time he's been nominated for an Oscar. Im hoping and praying right now that he'll get it!. if he does ill cry because a month after ill be seeing him live!. yes!

The oscar's will be airing February 22nd. on whichever channel you get where your reading me!. ill post the review and what i think of who won when they air!

Obsession of today..she deserves it because she is nominated!

For the entire list of nominees go here.

The curious case of Benjamin Button

2009-01-17T13:36:00.000-06:00

I saw this movie yesterday and well. i LOVED it! it made my day!

i had to write something as soon as the movie ended so im just going to copy it so you will get the feeling of what it meant.

I've seen one of the most exciting movies of my life, they teach you, you laugh and it has a message. Im happy, the movie made me smile and i enjoyed it in a way i havent enjoyed movies in my life. When i see movies like this is when i realize thats what i was meant to do with my life. something that can reach people and that feels the way i felt when i finished watching it. im sorry if this is boring but i want you to understand what making and watching movies mean to me.

Over all outstanding.

*5 stars

NikkiStew?. Nikki Reed & Kristen Stewart?

2009-01-13T22:00:00.004-06:00

OMG!. okay where to start? first i decided ha! yes me! that maybe this is a gayer blog than i thought and well this is proof of it. Yes i admit it, i read fanfic and yesterday i posted about it, so i found yuletide and in there i found some stories about Nikki Reed (who you may remember as being opposite to Evan Rachel Wood in 13 (not my thirteen but close i did like that movie or maybe as ~~Rosalie~~ the blond woman in twilight) & Kristen Stewart (Lil tomboyish girl in panic room, another movie with Meg Ryan or Bella in Twilight). Okay so the story was about them being an item. as i recall this wasnt the first time i read this, so i researched like 2 weeks ago and just found some loving websites but not the information i was craving for.

Then on one of my favorite blogs she discussed the story i read that had me going in the first place and in one of the comments they mentioned this site i found more and more and well literally i don't know what to believe, they have kissed (they claim not romanticly) they touch and well yes my gaydar does get on when it comes to Kristen yes and she is gorgeous! and well Nikki too even though i didn't have her on my mind

Ill leave here a couple of pics, just so you can judge too. by the way i love this 2, i just don't know if i love them as much as Rohan!.

And just because i soo want Kristen's Outfit (Next pic)

by the way Kristen is the one in red.

I'll go to sleep now and dream of her.

Back to school.

2009-01-12T21:43:00.001-06:00

Very soon. Not when it was supposed to be actually. and its all because i didn't ask. Im supposed to go back to school on monday. NEXT monday and i thought it was THIS monday so i returned ~~home~~ to this house way early, if i would've known today i would be writing in the comfort of my parents house that is my house and well not thinking about going back until next wednesday and well things would be different.

But hey like ive said before. things do happen for a reason and maybe that reason is to stop my debt and actually pay school on time. wich will happen if i don't decide to spend my money in other thigns that are not school.

To do: template, template, template.

i really do need to change it im getting bored with it and i need more color.

Im thinking about watching SON or the L word again. just to keep me entertained at nights. but what could it be? my love for Spashley is big. but thinking about seeing Helena and Jenny oh well.. Dilemma!. and since all my movies are at my parents. then is or SON or the L word. ha!. good thing is i have fridays with updates of my favorite fanfic again! yey! wanna read it. ch-check it out!

Back Home?!

2009-01-08T19:13:00.000-06:00

I arrived almost 20 hours ago. It didn't feel as good as getting to my real home almost one month ago. but it was better than i expected.

I was able to sleep and stay indoors not outside like the last couple of times. while i waited for them to be awake.

Im getting my money for school tomorrow and it will be amazing to start a new 4thmester im praying that ill have nice classes and actually enjoying myself like ive been doing in the last year.

you have what you deserve honey just remember that, yes that one is for me!.

I still haven't been able to change my template. i havent found one that i really like. plus i know remember i forgot to review 2 movies but ill be doing so this weekend.

I got around in the last couple of days to finish up watching South Of Nowhere and i really loved it. (im totally in love with both now, Ashley and Spencer.) i loved the ending and i love the show in general. can't wait for The L Word. which hopefully will give me the nice ending im hoping. Even if i know that ~~Jenny~~ Someone dies. and that scares me. because i really do love her.

I have all SON seasons on my computer. and im only missing the last 8 episodes on my iPod. I guess i won't be erasing them. they are such nice company when you need to be reminded that you are not alone in the world and that things actually can workout your way in the end. no matter who you kiss. no matter who you love.

Sick by the minute

2009-01-02T22:23:00.003-06:00

Today as far as being a good day it hasnt really been one. I am sick. i got the flu and i can't breathe. Im leaving to school in a couple of days and i don't really want to go. Yesterday allot of people came for the famous 'reheat' and well the house was full since i woke up till i went to sleep. I ate too much. but i really enjoy quality time with my family. what can i say? i just love them and i love being near them.

A friend of my aunt who was friend of my parents too died today. that was sad and that made this day not perfect. then i was decided to go shopping since i thought the sales started today so i woke up early and headed to the store only to be greated by no-one ha! the sales start tomorrow! so that means i got to wake up early again and i want to finish watching South of Nowhere for the third time haha!! im loving it more by the minute!

Im meeting my bitches on sunday and tomorrow i think will be a special day. as long as im not sick anymore that will be the IT of my day.

I could write ill be logging off but that would be a lie. i will be watching SON and have MSN on just in case the fave one wants to chat again!.

Oh! i forgot i wanted to change my template. i guess ill be checking that out tomorrow. im kinda bored with the one i have! so thats on ly to do list.

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T01:16:00.000-06:00

Happy new year to you! that reads me. Whether you come here because you know i write it and you like it or you just happen to stumble across it. Happy new year to you! may all your wishes come true and i wish you all the happiness and health one can ever have!.

+ Resolutions. ha! well i don't actually follow them but i guess its only one..to stop having debts and to finally be clear to at least one member of my family about me being gay. last year i told 2 friends, and the year before that i told my cousin so i guess we're kind of even. hehe..now this year one member of my close family will be the target.

Hot and Cold

2008-12-28T02:46:00.001-06:00

I should change the date for this one..because it happened yesterday. but i will leave it here because its supposed to show the date when you wrote it right?..

The Hot of my day. basically 2 things. 1. Someone who i love dearly (yes i do love her) did something ~~yesterday~~ today that i didn't see coming. running in a bike from north to south just to prove me something? that IS something!. and i really thought something was bad. my mind played tricks. she played them too..and well she won.

2. My dad plugged the TV with the stereo and well..we watched Peter Gabriel DVD's with the volume sky high and the picture so clear. we reminisce we sang and well we had tons of fun. which in the middle of all that fun came The Cold.

He got mad at something and took it out to everybody. i took my sister to the nearest starbucks and he was supposed to come. he didn't and got mad. I got mad. when i got back everything was okay. or at least that's what it seems. i sure hope so.

In the end it was a good day. ups & downs but pretty decent. good thing my dad didn't stayed mad for long and we finished up with our original plan.

Tomorrow the zoo and some movies!.

Also i have to do my own personal review of 'Love in the times of cholera' wich i just happen to watch.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-24T18:46:00.000-06:00

The title pretty much sums it all up!..merry Christmas! to everybody that reads this..and to everybody that dont..

I hope you eat allot, drink allot and enjoy allot!..

Just like me! LOL

Pulp Fiction

2008-12-23T16:03:00.001-06:00

Another day another movie..this time we I decided that we were going to watch pulp fiction which i think happens to be one of the funniest, well written, acted and directed movies of all time. I mean common! how many times can you tell people to say mother fucker and make it perfect!

-the guns
-the dialogs
-the head
-the drugs

Over all a nice movie..just a con just if you don't like it, there's allot of blood and did i mention already..swearing!

*5 stars

One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest

2008-12-22T18:33:00.003-06:00

Like 6 years ago i wanted to watch all the old movies that had won oscar's and i researched the list and this one was the first that i saw..im on vacation and i brought my dvd collection because my sister wanted to watch movies with me for a while..so she said she wanted to see this one..we prepared the TV set and almost everyone (my mom refused and my uncle didn't wanted to) started to watch it.

I remembered how it was on me the first time i saw it and well i couldn't help but love it again, Jack Nicholson is just amazing in his portrayal, you get to ~~hate~~ not love the ~~fucking~~ freaking nurse and well if you are a little bit like me you fell in love with the chief (RIP- i just found out he died like 2 minutes ago..sad). Its amazing the way they treated them (in the movie and in real life) no humanity..and if they are not crazy they become crazy by how they live.

If you haven't seen it i totally recomend it..i know im not giving a review like the way reviews are given..but i hate it when people give away all the good stuff in movies so..this is the way im giving reviews.

*5 stars.

South of nowhere finale

2008-12-20T12:50:00.003-06:00

I saw it..i liked it and i dont care what you think..haha..well i do care but i just got to say my opinion out loud..i think the video of them made by my Spencer was amazing..made me cry..even though i dont know if it was because it was the end or because it was really amazing and i saw it ~~twice~~ once..the kissed (wich is the least they could give us) they called 'spashley' out loud..and well it was happy happy happy in the end...

Im about to watch the webisodes (final 2) and ill come back and edit this one..with my amazing reviews..lol

EDIT:

Saw the webisodes..and well to be honest i DID like them...i was expecting worse because i read everywhere about what was 'going to' happen according to me..haha so it turned out to be nothing bad after all...

I guess my heart won in the end and me being the hopeless romantic that i am i wanted an ending like this..i really did so i have no complaints..not one for now!

Ashley & Spencer!

BTW..Ashley looked amazingly beautiful in the last episode...she really did..

..but Spencer is still my favorite...

At home for the holidays!

2008-12-20T12:09:00.000-06:00

I've been here for a while now..and i feel great! after finishing up exams and papers well i felt like i needed a rest and now by just being here i feel like i have it!...its really amazing how i change...how everything seems to be fine and in order...

Just a couple of days for xmas..i love it..

For your viewing pleasure

2008-12-18T19:04:00.001-06:00

and mine of course!....

The best looking Dr. in House M.D ~~Dr. Cameron~~ Thirteen!

Still at school..pretending for the last day...tomorrow heading to DF! yes!

Im trying to watch the final 3 episodes of SON..if i get to do that then ill come back and cry with you..if not ill try again later...sad *sob sob* these are the last ones!

The thing about translations

2008-12-18T16:58:00.002-06:00

Sometimes they get lost and the meaning isnt the same...i write in what is not my language because i prefer it that way..i feel like i say more or what i say sounds more beautiful this way than in spanish...but then there's people who don't actually understand the meaning of what im saying..they do understand what i wrote..they just think its directed towards them..but heck..i shouldnt be blaming this on the language..i should be blaming this on myself..because im even too afraid to write in my own blog the names of the people i love..the names of everyone..is as if im playing clue..leaving stuff for you to find out..

..the truth is im sorry about not writing the names..im sorry that i have to write in other language instead of my own..im sorry about mixed feelings..

woops.

From school!

2008-12-16T19:34:00.002-06:00

Im writing this from outside the library in my school..im actually not supposed to be here (in school!) but i have to pretend i still have classes left...because i need some money i havent got!..im actually going to be able to pay for school...and thats great great great amazing news because i was overstressed...someone whom i love dearly was kind enough to help me and well ill be forever thankful for that and i know its only because we are friends and there is more to that i know it but i wont fail...not at all!....

leaving now..and in 3 more days ill be home.

Tired

2008-12-15T20:50:00.003-06:00

Well..school is over and i actually did pretty good..i have one grade left so i can know my real grades..but up until know everything sounds amazing!...

im tired..i wanna go home..i need money..and i should be happy..i just spent the last 2 hours trying to get online at school...it sucks..allot of people where in the cafeteria and well i couldnt get ''enough'' signal to even get on msn!...blah!

i started getting stressed and angry and well it didnt help that someone was blaming it on virus..yes i know you are reading and im sorry that i yelled!...i know it doesnt have any malware ive checked it myself twice!..maybe it is time for another one..but still...it wasnt that..because now it works fine!...

Im going to stop here..and come back tomorrow when my head is not surrounded by darkness..it will be a nice day after all...

Sleepless night

2008-12-10T15:32:00.002-06:00

I went to sleep at 4am today and woke up at 8:30..din get much sleep..i finished my paper that is due in almost 3 hours..and i have my exam as well..

I guess this is what they mean with being stressed over school!..so much to do and i almost didnt got the time to finish it..im going to study in a while hoping i will pass my first subject this 4thmester..hehe..tomorrow i'll know another 2 more grades and on Friday the last one!

Year almost gone..DF here i come again!!

Murder

2008-12-09T00:29:00.002-06:00

Its murder!..

..i just saw a dead woman a block from my house (your house..the house where i live not technically my house but still)..she was shot to death according to the people on the store..i just saw her laying there..scary..to think that i walk there allot..and well..she is death..

probably they will say something tomorrow about it in the paper..probably not..the gossip queen in me tells me i should know..but actually im not sure i really want to..its really scary..i dont even have to walk more than 10 minutes to get there..

damn!..poor lady..

Peter Gabriel

2008-12-05T22:15:00.003-06:00

Today i woke up..nice shiny and cold day!..very cold i must add..i wasnt expecting anything new..just a boring working date wich didnt happen..then i started my breakfast..and as usual i grabbed the paper to read it..then on the entertainment section..what do my eyes see...

IN YOUR EYES-PETER GABRIEL LIVE MARCH 29!

*Faint*-**Double Faint**-**CRY**

Yes all these emotions past through me in a second..i love that guy..he is my wow..his lyrics changed almost everything for me and means the world to me..so seeing him live will be the best thing ever..even better than the Queen and than B herself..i must go..i will go!

Finals. So much work so little time.

2008-12-04T23:39:00.006-06:00

Ha!. where to begin?. i must admit i am suffering with a big big case of not wanting to do stuff. here i am posting instead of doing homework wich is what i should be doing. damn it!. why can't i just do it and get it over with?

maybe it is because very few times i have the chance to be online @ home when there's people around so i like it and i start searching and looking for things that are not related to school..then maybe because i know in the end ill finish and have good grades..but thats just so confident of me that i shouldnt be saying it out loud!..but its true haha!..maybe because im spending too much time obsessing over 13. yes im over Dr. Cameron now..13 rocks!. haha well i cannot actually be obsessing over her 24/7 but allot of my time does go there..and with her..i think this is the first time ill say it out loud in here..but i do think allot about her..about YOU if you end up reading this..its true..

Well i think im going to find something else to do that just sit here and write..maybe sleep?..that could be done and that would be actually good!

What about thinking?

2008-12-03T23:35:00.003-06:00

Even for a second..even for a minute..or an hour..i can do that..and everytime i do i end up with the same answer..why hide it? because im scared..my family..my friends..i actually don't know how they will react..its a win/lose situation..im not scared of being me..i just wont put it out if im not asked..unless i feel like doing it with the ones i trust the most..

i know who i am..i know who i like..i just don't like saying it..why is it so hard..so difficult to just actually accept the fact that i am me and nobody else..i am exactly who i was supposed to be if theres such thing as being meant to be..im happy..at least most of the time..i get worried..i get sad..i cry but 85% of the time i laugh..there is nothing wrong with me..

being OUT..is not easy..at least not were i am..people judge and look at you differently..not that i care about that but is just hard..it wasnt like that where i was actually..it was more open..here..well..lots of religious catholic stuff that makes the no-no...

but at least to the people i care..to the people i love..i am out..i am happy..i am me.

Someone is going to die

2008-12-03T23:30:00.002-06:00

...not me...not someone real...but someone i do love...

damn..why do i spoil things?..is it really so hard to stop reading after they tell you it will ruin the last season of one of your favorite shows?..that just sucks big time..not having self-power..

..now that i know it i wont enjoy it as much as i would've although i know i will cry..im not saying i wont..but oh damn..i should've stopped myself..

R.I.P- at least not until a few more months!

Sticky & Sweet

2008-12-01T01:25:00.000-06:00

Yes it was sticky..yes it was sweet!..it was amazing!

thats all i have to say!

Long live the queen!!!

Long live the queen!

2008-11-30T14:22:00.003-06:00

My stomach hurts. im nervous. in 2 hours im leaving to see the QUEEN in person. the queen singing. the queen in my country!. damn! that is absolutely surreal but really amazing!.

The newspaper said we should leave 3 hours early so we wouldnt find traffic. so im leaving @4:30. the show is @8:30 but i wanna do shopping and experience the greatness!!

Wich song will i love the most?
-im actually looking forward to one of my top 25 (according my iPod) that one will be 'beat goes on', but i looooove like a prayer!.

signing off not without posting the queen herself. Madonna!

About to go out.

2008-11-29T21:27:00.003-06:00

Im insanely happy!. im about to go out with my friends and well we're meeting to go clubbing. tomorrow will probably be the most exciting day of my life or at least one of the most. Madonna. yes. ill breathe now. she is singing right now on her 1st show in town. tomorrow is my turn!

Ill go out and enjoy myself. ill get ready for tomorrow the dancing and the singing. and on monday back to the real world. for 3 weeks only. yey

Going sticky & sweet pt.1

2008-11-28T21:30:00.003-06:00

Well..i dont know if i should write this because i would be writing it for the wrong reasons..tomorrow im leaving at 7am to Mexico city were Madonna will be singing to me on sunday..and well there is people in this world who don't believe me and called me a lier for it..point #1 i do NOT lie. and #2 i am going!. and i shouldnt be explaining this. i just thought since you might read that i do not lie and that i am going because of that.

I should be enjoying this..creating my playlist of the setlist and listening to her through my trip. wich im going to do in a second.

night wherever i am. hello Mexico city!

What about a little privacy?

2008-11-25T22:33:00.002-06:00

Im on a weird weird dilemma. i just watched a couple of pics of Samantha and Lindsay in a club where they are kissing and hugging. and well even though i loooooved the pics i think its wrong for me to love them. i mean if it where me and my GF and those pics end up in my parents computer or all over the world then i think i could probably die.

i mean the pics are great and all but what happened to privacy? and just being able to be you without people hunting you around?

Teacher

2008-11-25T22:25:00.002-06:00

Yes. i have a crush on her. she is my teacher and im totally infatuated. she is so gentle and so caring and she is very good looking. not out of the ordinary beautiful but she is beautiful and she likes me. not in a like me like me way wich if i get my head and fantasies on it i could probably write an amazing story about it. but she likes me and that is totally amazing!.

Every tuesday and every friday im there. not because of the class but because i want to see her. i think thats cool. i had never ever been like this. usually my teachers look like crap so is good.

Wknd.

2008-11-24T23:29:00.002-06:00

Okay my weekend was actually not at all special. i just watched ALLOT of Dr. House and went to see Quantum if that is spelled correctly. i ate at Chilli's and i got confused about the stores calling it a night sale i they begin selling at 10 am and end when the last costumer is out of there.

Yes that was on saturday i think my entire city was in those shops. getting their hands on nice sales and discounts. i end up with a pair of jeans myself. cute ones they are skinny!. its crazy to see people act there. they fight for shoes. fight for jeans. sweaters. i wonder if everything suddenly starts to disappear how would they react to ''the last of X'' maybe they'll kill!. who knows. is just scary

The movie ha! it wasn't my fave. its not my type at all. but it was good. good enough for a James Bond Movie.

They still dont have I Am in the stores. whats wrong with her people? why?. Last cd was here before it hit the states. tsk tsk. good thing i already have it or i would be crazy by now!

Good night. im off to a new SON chapter. hope in this one i get more PDA. Pleeease!

Something weird.

2008-11-21T23:27:00.001-06:00

okay im never ever going to change the font and the colors at the beggining of my post instead of after or something weird might happen like my last post. it WASNT meant to be like that. i just had 2 highlighted items in largest.

weird

Twilight

2008-11-21T01:01:00.004-06:00

Allot of hype and allot of everything is around Twilight this days why? easy. because it is for girls. actually by the review of Amazon it is for 12 year old girls. who go crazy about something that is good. and something they can relate to. im not sure if falling in love with a vampire can be something you can relate to. but falling in love that for sure is!.

I read 3 out of 4 books (im almost done with the last one) and let me tell you. well for one i more in love with Bella than with Edward. obvious reasons you people. and well i actually hated that they changed the vampire things. like coming out on the sun etc. but its something you can easily read and you enjoy it. IF you are a girl because i havent heard one single guy reading twilight.

ok now the movie i knew everything that was going to happen. and i still thought it was a good movie. Kirsten Stewart is amazingly gorgeous and well the other actors dont suck. well Jasper does. he has the face of an idiot. haha and i don't mean that in a bad way.

they changed a few things but the story is there. is good. and it was good. i had a nice time and well seeing her face for 2 hours doesnt hurt!. now ill continue to finish all the books. back to reading breaking dawn.

Whats the deal?

2008-11-19T22:42:00.005-06:00

hahaha..i noticed something funny..well i LOVE (yes with caps and all) Beyoncé and well its no surprise people over here at Mexico dont actually know her allot. and if they do they tend to say her name the wrong way wich i hate!. And ive only read about 2 things about her in the paper..one was her wedding and the other one yesterday's news about Justin dancing in heels in her SNL skit..wich is funny because the news was about Justin..well it even made the front page and all..

i guess im posting this because its actually funny. it was on the newspapers and in every gossip tv show. oh well hearing/seeing about her even that way is cool!

Nite!

2008-11-18T21:32:00.003-06:00

Allot happened. The story of a kiss (i din have one but it has to do with one). Long weekend. Overstressing right now.

So much to do and so little time. how do people actually get around and do everything?. i guess they own their time. such a shame im me. i don't own my time. or probably i just love not doing what im suppose to do. like right now. im supposed to be doing homework..instead im blogging. and im trying to do everything fast so that i can watch my favorite Dr. (no not House. Cameron yes thats it!).

I thought i had it all figured out about money. and about paying school. today i learnt that taxes are over the top (not at all like they were 4 months ago) and it sucks big time. cause my plans are fading but my spirit is HIGH. i swear this wont kill me. it will make me stronger!

Rushing out. just didnt want to go to sleep and not post at least about me.

Its all about Chelsea & Glen

2008-11-16T01:04:00.003-06:00

Just finished watching SON ch. 13. and well. I miss interaction. I miss Spashley and ill be missing them because i checked a few hours ago and i think they are like only 3 to go. good thing the last episode is an hour long. it can't be all about Glen and Chelsea.

what about Ashley?

What about Spencer?

When do they get to kiss in front of the parents?. When? Or maybe that would never happen. Hey well at least i got a hug.

Just because

2008-11-15T17:28:00.001-06:00

My favorites in London. Just Pure Love!

Forever?

2008-11-15T16:42:00.004-06:00

So. i have to say yesterday i went to school and there was no class!. i was mad because i walked with my laptop on my back to get there and to get back. i know normally i wouldve been happy. but i wasnt. not at all. i didnt wanted class but a fair wanring wouldve been nice..just saying

Yet again. new friends. new things. new me. well now im officially out with 2 of my friends. that is good. that is amazing. and the good thing is they didnt act bad at all. so that makes me really happy.

Right now im sitting in my bed. got the cops outside and the lawyers downstairs. i think im leaving in like an hour and a half. im meeting J.L i dont know where we are going but im sure ill have a nice time. ill be able to smoke so thats good right? (i know its not healthy but i cant help it but i AM NOT addicted).

Just a couple of weeks for Madonna. im actually excited. she is def. singing Beat goes on & Like a prayer wich are my fave's soo...EXCITEMENT all over the place.

Now its time for me to go. will post more in a while.

Meet my new obsession

2008-11-13T16:00:00.004-06:00

Dr. Allison Cameron

i know i maybe a lil late in obsessing about her. but ive seen her every weekend in the last 2 months so. its only right!.

See that bitch face?. well she is not. she is just sad!. and me. im in love.

What about me?

2008-11-13T15:47:00.003-06:00

Okay so..being OUT with everyone still has its no-no's..i dont think people really do care about it though but it will be nice to be free to do whatever u want when u want it..if u exclude kissing people around the corner i guess im pretty free so why?

Im rambling. got lots of homework. i stayed up kate last night watching my new obsession Dr. House. Who is in love with Cameron? raise your hands (so just me?). and well i guess house aint so bad himself either. no cameron but. oh well!

Tomorrow surroundings will change. house will be filled.

Im hungry. and i have class in a few hours.

Im so worried about a paper due saturday. i dont have time to do everything he asks. but still i have to do it. is nice to be challenged every once in a while but not everysingle time.

Im Off. and to my conscience. i AM ur conscience too.

South Of Nowhere

2008-11-11T22:47:00.003-06:00

Yes again, i am fucking in love with Spencer, seeing her drunk last episode was my highlight of the day. the show is almost over and i feel like im not going to like the end. Ive had so many bad experiences with my favorite shows ending that as the end is near i also have fear. i think i kind of know how it will be end. (its all my fault for searching in youtube the episodes in french!). but now since its all kind of ruined for me. i fear i will not get one ''great'' kiss out of them.

Last night while watching the episode. Glen kissed alright. Spashley they hugged!..c'mon!. Yes it got me mad. but oh well its for teenagers right?.

Back For Good?

2008-11-11T22:39:00.004-06:00

I have always tried to keep on writing. it seems i suck at it because suddenly i dont remember anymore.

Now im in a blog phase again. i guess because i feel there is so much that needs to be said. and well now im going to try a different perspective of it. maybe it wont be that personal. but haha i guess thats all i can write about. thats just so me!.

Now im tired of school. not school but my schedule. and im tired of not having things my way. im still missing her i guess its because i dream her like 3 nights a week and that is SO not helpful.

HELP! i need to stop having those dreams.

Washing of The Water

2008-02-29T23:57:00.002-06:00

I used to sing this song to one girl..yes L..and well..i think its one of the most poetic songs int he world..and the music is just to die for..is from Mr. Peter Gabriel..and well ill post the link to the lyrics for you..if u want to listen to it..do it please live!..is so much better!!....

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petergabriel/washingofthewater.html

And well i was just remembering her..i guess she turned my world upside down..she gave me most of the signs..i delivered..she kept going..i was there..she comfronted me..i told her i liked her..she didnt go away...now she is pregnant and im away...i dont even feel like her friend anymore..i miss her..i hope she is well..don't mean any harm..wish her all the best in the world..i couldve loved her to death...

R.I.P

2008-02-29T23:42:00.002-06:00

Well i was at school at about 4:40pm and i read devastating news..for me and maybe for u fellow readers...SOUTH OF NOWHERE has been cancelled...

It breaks my heart and i was in shock..because i love tt show!..i love those girls!..i relate to the plot!..and well it was so good to see someone more ur age (well im 22 but the school thing i relate more to tt that with the l word..wich i love!) well it kinda made u feel like u werent alone..and tt actually allot of stuff u thought wasnt so wrong..(if only there was a Spencer in my school!)..

Yes it makes me sad..im now hapy tt i got all the episodes in my computer..and well im looking forward to the last season..(the rest of the last??)..i know im going to cry at the end..heck id even cry right now...if i only had the courage to watch it...

...im a coward...LONG LIVE SPASHLEY!

I Just Realize

2008-02-24T16:56:00.003-06:00

Actually i realized tt on friday night..when i went to a wedding tt i wont be getting married..but somehow i do want to..not the party..not the dress..but just a really nice ceremony so tt everyone knows im with someone tt loves me and tt i love her back..what got me thinking??..a message from L..she thanked me for remembering her bday..and i totally screwed up and told her she forgot mine..then i almost started crying..i guess i still care for her and have deep feelings..but to return to the actual post..i thought about the music tt ill have to play..for everyone to please everyone..the songs i would want to heat and the food i would want to eat..i also thought about how almost no-one would show up because of my lack of friends so it will turn out to be a family affair..wich i see nothing wrong with tt..i guess its true when they say how a girl wishes and desires a wedding..i wish for it..dont desire..and i want it with a girl..*sigh*

Sick And Tired Of Self Pitty..

2008-02-24T16:51:00.002-06:00

The title pretty much sums it up..but is the truth..i cannot stand telling people how good they look..how pretty they are..what to do..what not to do..how to behave..if tt were my job then ill probably tell it..but its not..and what i hate is tt the person tt tells HERSELF..'oh im not pretty', 'look how ugly i look', 'im not beautiful'..i know they are only saying it so tt i can say..'no its not true', yati yati yatta...but i get tired...i know I AM beautiful..and when i tell myself tt i start to believe it more..so why can't she?...

Does she actually wanna be alone for the rest of her life?..tts the feeling i get..thats the feeling people around her get..she does nothing to gain a man's attention..nothing..she never goes out..and when she does she doesnt look in the eye..wich is why probably everyone is scared to even go and say hi if everyone did happened to like her!..im so happy tts not me..

What i wish is for her to be happy..from the bottom of my heart i do..maybe tt way she'll be different..maybe tt way all the stuff tt bothers her will stop and she can beging to smile..

Maybe...

2008-02-21T16:01:00.003-06:00

Yes...im so in love with tt Kelly Clarkson song..i guess its a pretty gay song..as in Kelly IS gay! but its so me..with everything...now ill proceed to quote my fave part of the song

"I dont wanna be tough..i Don't wanna be PROUD..I don't need to be fixed and i certainly don't need to be found...IM NOT LOST!"

and now a pic of my fave Gay couple today!!!

Now..im off to school..i got a test and i need to stop dreaming...about wanting something it seems so far away..but it will be real..maybe not today maybe not tomorrow..but one day..

Okay..finally and for good!!!

2008-02-21T15:55:00.002-06:00

Well i guess ive been trying not to write...well tts not true...is just i havent got the time but i just promised myself i'd find it and tts because i really enjoy writing and i kinda feel better after ive done it...

I know this is not a blog like any other blog...its basicly me sharing a state of mind tt is different from any other...its just me!...but i will open another blog (what!!..i dont even write in this one and i wanna write in the other one!!)..where i will be giving my point of view about particular things..maybe just gossip..movies..music..and well if i can about news tt really matter haha!!..=) so im back for good beloved readers...

Trying Not To Sleep

2008-01-21T01:32:00.000-06:00

But im not managing to do it!..i guess my life is not the same as before!..soo..i cant just not sleep when i want to!!

Tomorrow ill wake up to do some excersice..then some homework..and later hopefully..some school!..and itll be a nice day!

This weekend..was boring...almost finished watching 24..and then we bought some bootleg movies..saw 3 of them (outta 6)

All About women (??) is with meg ryan and adam brody and a cute lil girl i fell in love with!
Stardust (ok..how Gorgeous is michelle pfiffer!!!..damn!)
The bucket list...made me cry!..made me remember!! such a great movie!!

Watched some football..i totally wanted greenbay to win!!..damn!..yes they lost in extratime!!!

And ive been listening over and over to a new Kelly Clarkson song..its called 'Maybe' i know rumor has it she's gay..and with this song..well it kinda looks tt way!!.is so amazing..ill post the lyrics tomorrow!!..can't get over it!!....

Well i guess my attempt has failed and im officially going to sleep right now!! *And yeah probably have another lesbian dream..ive had them all week!! so cool!!..if only they were real!*

Isn't She Gorgeous?

2008-01-18T15:09:00.000-06:00

She maybe a bitch in the show..but she is stunning..sooo beautiful..

I just had to share her with you!..Im loving her!

Back...Finally!

2008-01-18T15:05:00.001-06:00

Well ive been hesitating about this..but i really enjoy writing!!!..soo ill keep my blog!..my oh its so fun to be gay blog..i dont mean tt in a harsh way..i love being gay..what i dont love is not being able to tell my parents or even a small part of my family because im so damn scared!!...

I guess like i said before the first one will be my brother..then itll flow..(i guess)

Allot happened in this week..i changed my mayor i was in communications..now im in marketing and im loving it!! i go to school 4 days and tt leaves me plenty of time to do homeworks and everything involving school!!

I havent been to the movies..and im trying so hard to watch those Cashmere Mafia episodes..ill see if i can use torrents!..i wanna watch em!!

Im thinking about buying a new laptop..its still in plan but if i do ttll be great!!!

Well im back now!..but its time for me to eat!

Stupid Guys

2008-01-04T02:57:00.001-06:00

What is it with stupid guys and not understanding reasons!!..*yes its in a very not friendly tone* i tried i really did try to be nice but it seems he makes it sooo hard..ok so u want the story..ill tell u the story..my story with Mr. R

Mr. R and me worked together..he sold food i took care of animals..
R started liking/loving me and started telling people so...
I decided not to hide anymore and told N, Paola (future reference P) and Cynthia (C) tt i was gay..(oh yeah why i din wanted to hide..tts another story u will know later..when im in the mood..
R knew I was gay and still decided to court me...
R told ppl he didnt mind i was gay and tt it would be could if i could be his GF..
I told him no i din wanted to im gay..*see this bracelet in my hand kinda gay*
R kept telling me i love you..please say yes..i wont be bad...
I started thinking...about what i dont know i just thought...
R asked me again...
I said no...
A viciously malignous dissappointment wich is why came out to ppl who is called Jess (J) happen AGAIN..and i said yes..oh yes darling let¡s date ull be my savior!
I started being my usual not wanting to have a BF self and broke up with R
R hated me
I din hated R and started liking L...allot!
R wanted to be close again so he listened to all the stuff i had inside when i wanted L..
R was being a great friend...
I left the city...called R and started talking..as in a talking dating way
R dated N..
R Stopped talking to I
N told me I got my supersized dont know why im jealous and I called R
R and N stopped dating and R called to talk/date
R stopped I and got her mad *why the hech was he playing with me when i was supposed to be playing with him..not good..and yes i was still pretty sure i was a lesbian*
R got a new GF
I came to the city..
I met R and talked
I left the city
R still had tt GF
I got to the city..again as in i am still in the city..
R keeps calling I..
I sometimes tells im not home..i went to the store..blah...
R tells I she is weird..
I tells R..u got a GF
I tells R everysingle time he called..the phone is on my parents bedroom there is no other phone i cant talk like i would want to talk because my parents are here..
R asks I..u cant talk right, right?..*please do not my previous sentence*
R tells I..u're weird..*again please!*
R tells I..Why dont u talk right *AGAIN*
R tells I..I guess this is Gbye..i hope u find urself a nice boy..tt he can take good care of you *i dont know if he is stupid or just playing to be one*

OMG..yes tts my longest post so far..and its all because i dont really understand how his mind works..he has a GF..he wants me..i dont want him..he knows tt..and he keeps calling and keeps saying stupid stuff wich i cant properly answer because theres always someone in the room..i hope u dont take tt im mean by this..im not..i just got really desperate..wich gets me to my fathers freaky question of 2 days ago...

''why are u always so mean to guys tt call u over the phone''

Damn i so wish i had the guts to tell him..or my mom..maybe tt way theyll know im not the bitch they think i am..

Awekward!

2008-01-04T02:47:00.000-06:00

(is it spelled correctly..lol)

I planned to go out yesterday (yes yesterday bcos its 2:48am rite now!) to gay town..i know i say it allot but this time i was realy going..
I got a cousin who i presume is gay/female/not-single so i told her if she would join me to gay Mexico..she agreed..but then we decided to go tonight because its LezNight..and a smile lightup her face..so made me think once again..maybe she is gay!..so im going today

Dentist today for me..in a while..i think im not sleeping because i need to wake up early and i end up waking up at 1pm and its NOT correct lol..

Facebook is up..i think its awesome..i know im a lil behind i did have it..but i had this shit on my browser abt some privacy thing until i finally got mozilla and it started working fine!!

South of Nowhere

Yes i am addicted..i am in love..(*places i love Spencer sticker in here*)..and i cant finish watching them..i got all 2 seasons now..and yesterday i watched season 3 episode 1-2 but i can't fnish downloading episode 3 so i can¡t watch episode 4 or 5 or 6.....im stucked!! and im downloading right now..but its a long way to go..hopefully theyll be done by today!!!

I think im so ready for a girlfriend..i so want to feel that gentle kiss and hug and touch..so many ands..but its true..when i had my chance i lost it because i didnt knew it was MY thing/turn/decision to say 'do u wanna be my GF' and i fucked it up..now i know im tt type..the one tt has to say it not the one tt should wait..or maybe it was just with her..but..the thing is..i wont fucked it up again..not anymore..

Reheat!

2008-01-02T16:40:00.000-06:00

Everyone came..again..and we ate the leftovers of last day..i woke up at 1..and everyone arrived like at 3pm

We talked..had some coffee..and then i kinda slept again!..lol

I got online and tried to download some SON chapters..i ended up downloading the episode tt was missing (Nº 5) and then i kept going and going..yes tt was after i told someone i was going to sleep (i couldn't! but i hope u had a nice sleep though!)

I played some online poker..but then my stupid laptop went off soo the game wa suspended but i was getting it soo right (i think d score was 1-1)

Nothing much has happened im just waiting for my dad to call me so i can go in and have him check at my teeth (yes he is a dentist!)..so ill be here..waiting!

New Year!

2008-01-02T16:36:00.000-06:00

This was yet the best new years i have ever celebrated!!..everyone dressed up and had a wonderful amazing time!..ill post some pics later!!

We had some dinner @ 11:30 and then everyone said some wishes (not me..i only tried to make em laugh!) my sister (who btw is 13) got a lil drunk because she just started serving her and ended up crying like crazy and the next day her hangover was so good!
Everyone was making fun of her!..it was funny..

It was a costume party..and since it was a nice time we took like hundreds and hundreds of pics hah..even my granda dressed up for the night!..

Thats it for this holiday post..it was a nice time..and hopefully this year we'll be better than the last 1!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2007-12-31T16:51:00.000-06:00

I hope u have fun..in a very relaxed sexy way!!..enjoy!

May your wishes come true!..and keep your resolutions..or at least try lol!

All the best!

Almost New Year's

2007-12-30T22:33:00.000-06:00

So today all my family reunited in my house for a lovely dinner..

Disclaimer: it wasn't the happy new year party..tt is tomorrow and u¡ll get to see the pictures!

It was nice..we had wine..cigarrettes and rock and roll what more can u ask for? me..i got lots of stuff in mine..how about a gil tt loves me and tt i can bring home and kiss every night and waking up by her side!..oh well! i wont get into tt today because it was a good day! a very good one!...

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S!!!

Happy Bday!

2007-12-30T22:29:00.001-06:00

Not actually mine..my cousins..we got to a place but it was full of metal people..so i didnt wanted to be there we went to a pool bar but since we got there with 2 minors they din let them in...sooo..we got to another place and it was like a big rave...

-Cover: 20
-Beer: 15..and later 10
-Pot: Free
-Almost passing out in there: Priceless and something i wont ever do again!

Electronic music surrounded me since 12 til 6 am..i couldnt take it anymore..then i got home and my dad was waiting for my brother and us but luckily he just wanted to check we were alive haha

Not In Gay Town..

2007-12-28T21:45:00.000-06:00

...But in town!!

Well since my brother came along (and he still doesn't know for sure im gay) i went out..as i promised but to town..to find my battery for my laptop!...it was nice we left at 3 and got back at 6..so i wasnt all the time @ home!!

..Ive been having some strange thoughts since yesteday i completed my marathon of South Of Nowhere..i think im telling my brother on new years..i dun think it'll be of any harm..plus i think itll be the best thing for our relationship...we get along well but i feel like im really hiding something he could be supportive about (yes im a liar! in tt sense i am!)..i guess if i get drunk i must not tell him..but i could try..it depends...

..by now i realise this is the most 'mature' post i have done so im gonna shut up and leave it at that...

Promise!

2007-12-27T18:19:00.000-06:00

Yes..indeed..I've been doing nothing this last couple of days but tomorrow i swear i will at least go to gay town!..i cannot stay here anymore it wont be a nice vacation if i just stay at home right??

Yesterday i watched Scarface and it was good..din watched sex and the city for a day but i did watched south of nowhere haha...i slept @ 5 am..and right now im not even sleepy..what could it be?..

I promise i will go out and start writing something cool..anything but 'im still staying home'

Xmas Pics!

2007-12-26T18:15:00.002-06:00

This had to be edited due to my embarassment!! LOL

Not So Merry?!

2007-12-26T16:08:00.000-06:00

..Hope u had a wonderful christmas!!..

I guess ill tell you about mine..last saturday i spent the entire day creating an MP3 so we could dance..it turns out i fucked it up because i put all the songs in folders and when we got to my aunts house..there was no TV to check were the songs where sooo..it was a big deal cause everyone wanted this and that and my father was yelling yatti yatti yatta...and well it was good..for like 3 hours..then it came Karaoke time and..well my dad began his usual drunkiness...and mad time at holidays..so i ended up feeling like shit and not enjoying..tts until my cute cute very cute cousin (male cousin but he is cute..and plus i havent seen him in like 7 years)..but dun worry ill post a slide show later..

We got home @ 5:30 and the next day they woke me up @ 1 because i dunno if u know but here in Mexico there's this thing called the 'Reheat' and you eat everything tt u didnt @ night..so we get together again...

Plans for New Year..
-My house (your house=
-My laptop wil be in charge of the music
-Costume Party (It'll be the first..everyone must come in disguise..ull get to see the pics!=
-Food and more food!
-Grapes
-Drinks..

Now all i have to do is go out to Gay Zone..A.k.a (Zona Rosa) and find myself some lady..but like i told you im too shy!! hehe

Merry Christmas Ya'll!!

2007-12-24T16:46:00.000-06:00

In spite of still being in my jammies..waiting for my sisters to come in and help me with my hair (i want it straight straight..but they do it so much better!)..me watching sex and the city..in spite of everything it does feel like christmas..and i just wanted to wish everyone a very very happy one!..

Enjoy it with the people you love..the people you cherrish..have a great night celebrating..and if you drink please dont drive!!

Merry Christmas!!

Then I Realised I Do Have Faith..

2007-12-24T16:42:00.000-06:00

'..faith in myself..faith then i will one day meet someone who will be sure that i was the one..'
-Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and The City

Well its true ...Big thought in the middle...and Hopefully it wont take her long to find me..or me to find her..

To Get In The Mood

2007-12-23T16:56:00.001-06:00

Okay so my last attempt..i wanna get in the mood!! and i found 2 very nice holiday videos! hopefully ill be able to post them

Beyonce - Holy Night

Hanson - White Christmas

Error!

2007-12-23T16:42:00.000-06:00

Ive been trying to post some holiday videos just to get in the mood and it seems i can't!..hehe ill try more!!!

Downloading!

2007-12-23T16:34:00.000-06:00

Yepp!! since i havent watched South Of Nowhere (SON) im downloading it!..piracy??..not actually..since i dont have a real way to watch it all..they are aiting it on MTV but sometimes im not able to watch it!!

I was downloading it and somehow my computer just went off!!..so im trying again!!..

I did open my xmas present..and it happened to be the entire seasons for Sex and the city!!..how cool...im about to do a marathon!!..lets see how much i get to see..since im poor ima be emailing cards to everyone!!...

Still no wishes since il be coming back!!